I ran the Sinhagad Epic Trail - 30K on June 27th. This is the second trail run under my name. My First Trail Run was the datum, which was quite decent in my opinion (as far as datums go).
The experience at Sinhagad Epic Trail was markedly different.
A good friend said this to me when I was afraid of failing.
He followed it up with the pigeons in the park are free; you can just take them home.
Lets write a series of statements; all of which are true. One of these statements is unideal and that can be fixed. Try to spot it:
One fine day, I find myself invited to a meteor-shower viewing trip. The details were still undecided but it would involve a bike ride of about 100 kilometres one way. In order to view a meteor shower, we need to get out of the city-light-pollution.
I took some time to confirm my plans. I was getting the pre-trip cold-feet when a friend kindly stepped up and helped me navigate those (thank you). Now that I had committed to the trip, I decided that I would carry my coffee-making equipment on the trip because why not!! It turned out to be a good idea.
Because of reasons which are too private, I find myself in a hospital. I am ok; I am here for someone else.
Hospitals are places of waiting (amongst other things) and I think I am good at it. The lack of information does bother me at times.
I have always struggled with not belonging to any particular place. As far back as I can remember, I recall this uncanny feeling. The feeling can be best described as the feeling when you stand at a bus stand that is the middle of your journey.
You are not at your destination and you are not at your source as well. You are in-between (as Viktor put it ;-) ). You can not unpack your bags and sit down for a while because the next bus might be just around the corner. So you just end up staying there, waiting for the bus to arrive; your feet hurt, the shoulders feel the weight of the bag and you are most likely hungry and you have to use the restroom as well.
I won't call myself an empath because I dislike labels. I like to think of myself as someone with a pair of empathy tinted glasses. This is very similar to the "sunglasses" from the movie They Live OR like the Peril Sensetive Sunglasses from the HGTG. Things changed once I picked up these nice looking shades.
The oldest prominent memory that I have with these shades dates back a fateful day in school where I was involved in a "fight". I hit someone and the pain it caused them did something to me. I remember being numb for a while after that. The fact that I was capable to such violence, of inflicting so much pain was very alient to myself. I tried to replicate the hurt by inflicting the same on myself for the rest of the week without much success. You see it is very important to me that I am familiar with the type / intensity of pain I can cause. Since that incident I have had trouble "fighting"; even playfully. I DO NOT want to hurt people.
Defunct: superseded by Endurance Training Notes while I am working through a marathon training block.
This documents my setup for using LLM-powered coding agents (specifically OpenCode with Claude) as a day-to-day software engineering tool. The system is built around three ideas: